Kid Cudi: On Mental Breakdown: “I Couldn’t Pretend To Be Happy”

Kid Cudi On Mental Breakdown: "I Couldn't Pretend To Be Happy"

Like all of us, Kid Cudi has seen some dark times, but his were played out in the public spotlight. In October 2016, Cudi went to rehab for depression, anxiety and suicidal urges. Around the time he checked in, Cudi penned a Facebook post explaining that he was “not at peace” and apologized for letting anyone down.

In a new interview with Billboard, the Republic Records artist opens up about that period in his life, and what he did in the moments after writing the Facebook post.

“I put it up, and I walked away,” he says. “A couple of hours later, I saw that it was all over the news. Then I got really scared. I didn’t read any articles about it at first. I didn’t know how people were responding. I was asking Dennis [Cummings, his current manager] what the response was, and then I checked it [myself] a couple of days later and saw that the response was all love and support, and it really touched me.

“I was in a really bad place, and at the time, I felt like I was letting a lot of people down. It was really hard for me to even write that letter, but I needed to be honest with the kids. I needed to. I couldn’t live a lie. I couldn’t pretend to be happy.”

With that behind him, the Grammy Award-winning rapper is seemingly back in top form, He released his collaborative project with Kanye West, Kids See Ghosts, in June and is in talks with Jordan Peele’s Monkeypaw Productions to produce a TV show he’s “secretly” been working on for the past four years.